Stephanie is..

I vaguely remember watching Morning Glory last Spring Break in a cabin with my two best friends. I remember laughing at an airplane scene and scoffing at my friend for taking my blanket. I also remember watching Rachel McAdams's character go into a job interview and getting asked, "Who is (insert her character name here)?" That seems like an easy question to answer, doesn't it? You'd say, "Oh, that's an easy one. I'm...." It isn't as easy for me. I would literally sit there in front of the interviewer and be dumbfounded. Because when it all comes down to it, I'm not really quite sure who Stephanie Downing is. I'm not sure what she wants. I'm not sure what she feels half the time, and I sure as hell do not know why she thinks the way that she does. But I do know this:

Stephanie Downing believes in second chances. Sometimes third ones. She just wants to give love and get that same love back. She wants people to understand where she's coming from, although she doesn't even know. She wants something more than this small Alabama town. She loves sunshine, good friends, puppies, shoes, and babies. She drinks out of the carton. She eats too much taco bell. She stays up too late. She grits her teeth too much. And whitens them too much. She sings at the top of her lungs in the car, and is scared of butt dialing people when she does it. She texts at red lights. She wants so badly to trust with her whole heart, but is stopped by something. She wants to believe that no matter how badly someone has hurt you, their intentions were good. She wants to believe that people do change, and that they wouldn't do it to you one more time. She tries to look at people and see more than what she knows. She hurts others sometimes, but never means to. She knows that beauty is inside, and she tries to be as beautiful as she can. She wants to forgive. She wants to be forgiven. She wants to forget. She wants to love, dream, explore, say "I love you", say "I trust you", say "I'm sorry", say "Thank you for making me stronger", and say, "I promise." She wants something real, solid, trustworthy, promising, and honest. She wishes she could go back and fix relationships, because she can't stand when someone she loves is mad at her. She wants to believe it when someone says, "I'm sorry, Stephanie." She wants to never make mistakes that will hurt other people. She knows that all things are part of a bigger picture, and that God is faithful, loving, and sovereign. She loves her nephews, her sisters, her parents, and the friends that keep her together. She loves people. She loves life in spite of the bad days. Stephanie Downing is just a girl. That's all.