To The Select Few..

This blog post was inspired by someone else's bright idea. These are the words that I am too afraid to say.

Dear _____,

You have impacted my life SO MUCH. I never knew that I had any talent at all until you pulled it out of me. You believe in me when I don't believe in myself. Sometimes you are so stressed out and I wish that I could stop time for you and let you take a nap. There is absolutely no way that I could ever repay you for all that you have given me. You showed me what I loved to do, and I wouldn't be able to do any of it without you. I will never be able to understand how you do what you do and remain sane. You are amazing and I am so grateful that I get to be a little part of your life. You are my hero.

Dear _____,

I hate that it has to be like this. I hate that all of that had to end this way. I know that we are only human, and I know that you think I'm a hypocrite for not letting you back into my life, but I'm not angry at you. I'm hurting. So much. My heart aches for the friendship that we used to have. I wish that I could trust you. I wish that we could talk.. but I have nothing to say. I'm sorry.

Dear _____,

From the moment I heard your gorgeous voice, I have been hooked on you. You are so charming, handsome, and different. I wish that you could see what I see. I wish that I could help you with your problems as much as you help me with mine. You are such a wonderful person and such a great friend. You mean more to me than I could ever explain to you, and you deserve all the happiness in the world.

Dear _____,

I wish that I had never met you. I wish that I wouldn't have fought so hard for something that you were just going to throw away. I wish I would have run when I had the chance. I wish that I didn't have to completely cut you out of my life, but I know that this is for my own good. I know that I am so much better off without you, but I feel like I've lost a friend. I wish that I could take it all back.. But more than anything, I wish that I could trust you. I wish that I knew you. I wish that I understood you. I hope that you don't forget me.. and I wish that I meant something to you.. anything at all.

Dear _____,

Although your mentality is still stuck back in the 8th grade, you're still one of the most good looking people I've ever seen in my life. I wish that you would make use of the talent that I know you have. I wish you'd stop following the crowd and do what I know you really want to. I wish you'd stop being a weiner and TALK to me. I loved you very much, and I always will.

Dear _____,

You are so precious! I used to think you were kind of a butt hole... but now I just think the world of you. I never thought we'd actually be friends, but you are so sweet and I really appreciate how you let me vent to you. I love how you act like a kid sometimes, and you always make my day a little bit better. I'm really going to miss you next year.

Dear _____,

Sometimes you make me so mad.. and sometimes you make me feel like I am the best thing that has ever happened to the world. I want to tell you that you're wasting your time and energy on me.. that there are lots of others that are better. Actually, I already have. Your relentlessness baffles me and inspires me at the same time. I wish I could make it a little easier on you.

Dear _____.

You were always so angry, and I was always so afraid of you. But as I grew older, I learned not to be afraid.. because actually, you're alot like me. I know you try to be so strong, but I can see through it. You aren't here and things are hard for us right now, but I know it wasn't your choice to leave. I love you very much, and I hope you're doing okay.

Dear _____,

I used to feel like we were strangers. Definitely not family. But I have watched you come so far, and I am immensely proud of you. You are a beautiful woman, inside and out. I see so much love and faith and fight in you, and it inspires me. I love you so much more than I could ever tell you.