Really..?

Okay.. first off, I know I have been completely M.I.A. lately. I apologize. My laptop got a ton of viruses (my fault for ignoring the Norton pop-up for so long), and Dad had to take it to the Geek Squad to get it fixed. It was gone for a couple weeks. Needless to say, I felt really strange without it. Let me update you on my life. I have been a pretty busy bee lately. For the past couple of months, I have been completely wrapped up in the upcoming Spring Musical, Sweeney Todd.. memorizing lines, memorizing songs, trying to diffrentiate between my head voice, my chest voice, and my throat voice... ahhh. It's also showchoir season. We've been going from competition to competition via charter bus. We get on stage, and sing and dance until all we want to do is shower and nap... and maybe get some taco bell. Lately it just seems as if I'm never NOT doing something. I always have a test to study for, I always have a song to listen to, I always have something to clean, and always something to try to remember. Have you ever just wished that life would slow down? Or just pause for a little while? That's all me right now. I mean, don't get me wrong.. these are the things that I love and am passionate about.. and I do know that not everything can just be handed to me without hard work, I have just been so exhausted. Mentally, physically, emotionally.. the works. Woe is me, right? haha. My attitude towards everything lately has been, "....really..?" When I tried to squeak some of my Sweeney notes and all that came out was raspy air I thought, "really?" When I almost got in a car accident on the way to school on Wednesday, When my car broke down on me and I sat on the Wendy's curb and pouted, when I thought I knew what I was doing on a test and it came back with a big fat D on it, when I wake up in the mornings still exhausted because I only got about 4 hours of sleep, When my stress brings along about 9 zits that makeup just will NOT cover, when I finally decided to be brave and try sushi and it gave me hives... really? At this point, I'm pretty sure the roof could fall in on me and all I would be able to say is, "...really?" Things just keep coming left and right. I'm juggling maybe just a little more than my hands can hold. I bit off just a little more than I could chew. But that's life, right? I'm determined to juggle all of this and I'm determined to do it well. Instead of throwing up my white flag, I'm going to push even harder. I'm going to study my chemistry at 1 a.m., listen to my Sinatra, and drink my Starbucks, and know that even through all of this hustle and bustle.. I am blessed.