So, I can usually come up with some witty sentence or comparison or something to start a blog post, but tonight I am just unable. Don't you love how good it feels when you can control something? When you can change it and tweak it and manipulate it to where it's exactly how you want it to be? I don't mean people, of course. Because that would be immoral. I mean situations. And don't you absoultely hate it when you can't? I do. I've always been the type of person who likes things to run smoothly. From beginning to end. No drama, no metaphorical road blocks, no hurt feelings, nothing like that. I love when things are happy and easy and in control. When something goes completely awry, I have no clue what to do with myself. I absolutely hate to admit that there are things that I have no control over. I hate to admit that sometimes things change and there is nothing I can do about it. I overthink things, worry myself to death, and sleep becomes a complete stranger to me. I always think, "Maybe I could have done this. Maybe that would have helped somehow.."
Nobody should live that way. Nobody should have to walk on eggshells and constantly be afraid that things are going to go wrong. Because it weighs you down. This worry is like my 2nd term backpack times 7. So, you know what? I'm dropping it. Things are going to go wrong. People are going to have to leave sometimes. Things don't always go as planned... and it's all a part of life. The challenges make us stronger. The changes make us wise. Nobody ever said that you had to be ready for all the things life will throw at you. You just have to come back from it.. and you're stronger than you think.
"If you wanna fly, you've gotta give up all the stuff that weighs you down." -Toni Morrison
